Self Harm

This is one of the subject people dont really like to talk about.
But I thought I should share an experience.

I got in a fight with one of my best friends (at the time) and my parents were pissed. And my brother, well my brother was being the jackass he is usually to me. Anyways, I called her. Told her our whole friendship was fake. She was fake, I was fake. Everything was fake to me. I cried for hours and hours. I just didnt know what to do. So, of course I cut myself. I was scared. I talked to my sister, told her not to tell mom or dad. Or else, I guess I would despise her. She talked to my dad. And well they found out. I cussed her out. I was beyond pissed that she betrayed. Of course the girl I am, I took it to higher hights saying I was going to run away, call the cops.
Next day at school. I was torn. My hair was a mess. I didnt give a shit anymore. I lost everything. I talked to some of my friends who have been in my position before. They said they were dissapointed in me. So, afterwards. I wanted to be distant. I cut off relations. And I was an example of the living dead.
                                               I just wanted to die
I was sick of everyones voice. I talked to another friend, I found out everything between me and my so called bestfriend was infact fake. She talked shit on me. She was changing & so was I. We just werent suppose to go on any longer.
Everyday I look at that cut. I hate it. It wasn't worth all the hurt. Please, if you EVER feel like hurting yourself. Talk to someone before that happens. I've been there before. Trust me, you never want to be in that positon in your life.